I have no idea what to do. I´m fifteen and already feeling that I have wasted my life. I have no skill. I´m just… drinking coffee, watch the sky, sunset and later I try to sleep, but isn´t able to cause I´m afraid of the dark. I always just lay there in my bed and want to wake up, but havn´t slept yet. I plan how tomorrow will look like. Cause the day that was, it was crap. Later tomorrow becomes the same shit. Can´t do anything. So what should I do? I have no money! I like writing, love poetry, but I´m never pleased. I want to become someone. Someone happy. Someone pleased. Don´t know how.