I just chill right now. I feel completely run-down. End. If I didn´t have music I don´t know what I would do. Should do?. I long so much that reality seems unreal. I dream, fantasize. Yes I think a lot right now. Philosophizes. So much that it hurts. Feeling a little lonely. Alone in my closet. My wardrobe I lived in for a year. This is now the last week as I live in this house, then move with mom and sister. Nice. Retry. Start over again. Longing. Next week is the last week of school, then holiday. The last week of this school. Retry. New start. Dreaming. I fantasize. How can I explain more? So hard to find words on the sluggish feelings in a time like this when nothing happens.